yee-teng.blogspot.com

welcome.

hey there...
thanks for viewing my blog and i hope you will enjoy reading it,
will keep it a rather simple one this time with more pictures compare to those ex-blogs i had.
since i've not been blogging for quite some times,
please bear with me if i don't update that often and some vocabulary or spelling mistakes ya.
OH oh! before i forget,
feel free too to browse around my blog to read about my profile or even leave some comments by simply clicking at those links beside k? =D
alrite then, have fun!

♥ yee.teng.

wanna know more about me?

i'm always not good in writing an 'about-me' article so you will now expect what kind of profile i'm gonna write about myself lah ya ^^
well for the very basics,
my name is tan.yee.teng and i stay with my family in bangsar.
have 2 younger sisters and so that makes me the eldest one, which kind of explains the type of personalities i have.
i'm mature, organized most of the time, funny (i laugh a lot)
and out spoken (in my own way)...
doesn't have a specific ambition but to be a strong independent women in the future so that me and my family will be proud of myself.
after meeting many different peoples,
i now strongly believe in myself but not anyone else when i'm dealing with hard times in my life.
but of course,
family and friends are very important to me in terms of support.
you can know more about me by reading my update of posts, click on the 'entries' link on your right and enjoy...

8:45 PM

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

hey everybody, its been awhile. a really long while, i know.
if anyone still dont know, im currently in Perth already.
the studying-oversea dream of mine came true after all these years, i've been awaiting for this day to come.
but finally when the day is here, im not excited as i imagine i will be.
so much tears, so much dramas, so much frustrations, so much stress.

i just cant help myself but start thinking again, is it me? am i the problem again?
its freaking killing me inside when i have to convince myself im not the one that i've always thought i am trying to be, it just seems like im lost in so many things in so many ways that i cant even find my way out anymore.

why? the question is always why...
why can life be so hard?
why am i feeling so bad?
why didnt i do that from the beginning?
why am i blogging now when i dont even fucking know what im thinking anymore...

classes have been on for four weeks, now im on study break. a very stressful one.
havent been following the study plan i made for myself again, completely shows how i can be such a failure.
i really fucking hate how emo i am being right now, can kill myself anytime soon.

so many fucking guidelines!
like what i have done is ALL wrong!

so many fucking bitches!
like my life even matters to you all, cant you just mind your own fucking business!!!

so many things this and that, wrong or right!
like i know nothing at all, like im a fucking retard!

sometimes, or maybe all the time.
i really hate this world, really hate that i am never right.
hate that i never have a say in every single thing in my fucking messed up shitty life.

or i am just being super emo now. i dont know.