yee-teng.blogspot.com

welcome.

hey there...
thanks for viewing my blog and i hope you will enjoy reading it,
will keep it a rather simple one this time with more pictures compare to those ex-blogs i had.
since i've not been blogging for quite some times,
please bear with me if i don't update that often and some vocabulary or spelling mistakes ya.
OH oh! before i forget,
feel free too to browse around my blog to read about my profile or even leave some comments by simply clicking at those links beside k? =D
alrite then, have fun!

♥ yee.teng.

wanna know more about me?

i'm always not good in writing an 'about-me' article so you will now expect what kind of profile i'm gonna write about myself lah ya ^^
well for the very basics,
my name is tan.yee.teng and i stay with my family in bangsar.
have 2 younger sisters and so that makes me the eldest one, which kind of explains the type of personalities i have.
i'm mature, organized most of the time, funny (i laugh a lot)
and out spoken (in my own way)...
doesn't have a specific ambition but to be a strong independent women in the future so that me and my family will be proud of myself.
after meeting many different peoples,
i now strongly believe in myself but not anyone else when i'm dealing with hard times in my life.
but of course,
family and friends are very important to me in terms of support.
you can know more about me by reading my update of posts, click on the 'entries' link on your right and enjoy...

1:16 PM

Sunday, May 10, 2009

long story short, im just fucking pissed and emo right now!!!

once in awhile i get into this thinking phase where im super over sensitive over things, and this is the perfect time for me to have the courage to either kill myself or kill someone.

i think about stuffs happening in my life, i feel bad about myself, i basically just drown myself in the depression and be totally pathetic!

like now, im dwelling over a stupid assignment that i dont feel like doing anymore.
i look back suddenly and realise, hey! i have no friends actually, i dont have a bestie where ppl can rely on and share things with.

i seems to have a lot of improvements waiting to be made, but how much can i push myself?
why everytime im the one thats not good enough, why everytime im the one that has things to change about, why everytime im the one that has problems, why everytime im the one that should think about whats going wrong with my life.

WHY EVERTIME IM THE ONE ADJUSTING MYSELF TO FIT THE ENTIRE WORLD!!!

im tired of forcing to think that im not good enough, im sick of asking myself to be someone else, i dont want to find out whats so wrong about myself anymore, i dont think i have to change.

I HATE THAT IM ALWAYS BEING TOLD WHATS RIGHT AND IM ALWAYS WRONG!!!

why it just seems like me being myself is such a big problem, why is it so fucking hard to just say things that i thought and do things that i feel like doing?! why is life so hard...

it just seems like in this whole fucking world, no one gets how hard im pushing myself.
no one knows im trying my best to make things better everytime.
no one appreciates my effort of pleasing everybody just so someone will turn back and look at me for once.

why.. is it so hard to be me...